Hello! It has been yeaaaaarssss guys.. I even forgot that I could actually still access to this or that this blog still exist. So basically, now I'm a 25 year old young lady 😅
I have graduated from Republic Polytechnic with a Diploma of Healthcare Administration *I think cause they have changed the name since I have graduated; 2015*
I'm currently working full-time now. It has been about 3 years Alhamdulillah 😌
So.. I now have a cat; son! Woo hoo! His name is Fluffy! He is super cute and he is black and white. His fur looks like he is a gentleman. Kinda look like he has a vest on. Kinda look like a waiter too 😂
I had him for about 3 years too!



What else? Aaaahhh.. Danial.. He basically just disappeared from my life. We actually got engaged in 2016 after I found out he cheated on me with a single mom. Yeah yeah yeah.. I know.. What's new right? So I didn't want to get engaged initially but he begged me and all that shit so then I accepted him (again) then 2018 he just broke of the engagement after Raya by asking his mom to call my mom to call it off with a reason of 'tak mampu' and that's it. There wasn't a closure or goodbye or whatever. He changed his no. and I wasn't in any of his social media. So basically, he didn't love me at all and that 10years+ was basically nothing to him. Heartless right? Yeah I know.

On another note, we also shifted from Boon Lay to Jurong West. So basically, now it's only my mom, my sister, my brother, Fluffy and me 😍

*I also recently cut my hair short *above my shoulder* because the engagement was broken off. So please enjoy the photos below after I chopped my hair off..














I guess that's all for today. Since now, I know that this blog still exist, I'll probably keep it updated 😝

Lots of Love
Fafa Ayu Manje ❤

Hey.. It's been months since i blogged. So yeah.. Alot of stuff happen lately. Well, hmm.. I've enrolled in driving and still in the theory stage. Hahahaha. 22nd December is my Basic Theory Test. Wish me luck :)
Next up, Danial cheated on me with a 15 year old girl -_-
She's my sister's and Danial's sister's age. They met twice and had sex. So yeah.. Kill me. I've been crying every night. Thinking about it hurts like @$%&. I rather he tell me straight in my face that he had another girl than do this to me.I was soo stupid to believed his lies. Guess what? Danial sanggup gy Sengkang where the girl lives there just to meet her when he was still wf me. Bitch. Double bitch. I mean like our distance is just 20mins away and sanggup he waste his time and ezlink on a bitch. You know, i treated both of them so nice. I messaged that girl on FB saying sorry to her on Danial's behalf but he doesn't know this. He said that im very zalim. Well, in my opinion, what he did to me was more zalim-er. To think i said sorry to her on his behalf as if im the one stealing Danial from her. And i think that girl has other guy to but i bet Danial didn't know. I always hope that karma hit him but when karma really hit hym, i feel sad and heartbroken. I dont even know why im feeling this way. Sometimes i just hope that i lost my memory so that i could re-start my life. I love hym too much to hurt hym but he doesn't feel what i feel. Sometimes i pray that ALLAH open his heart and mind. That's all i can do. I mean i waited for hym, tahan wf hym and this is what i get. As much as i love hym, sometimes i need hym to love me back. Ytd, he sort of blame me for his lost of youth/teenage years. Im like.. -_-
I wasted almost four years with you. I tahan your nonsense, temper, lies, betrayal, actions, words and you cheat on me. You break my heart like nobody's business and now, you blame me? I wasted my youth/teenage on you. Haish. If he really loved me, he wouldn't have done this to me. I feel like a pathetic loser :(
Anyways, sad heartbreaking story aside. Now, im like addicted to the song "I love you like a love song" by Selena Gomez. Yes. It's the girl that dates with Justin Bieber. Okayy.. I still can't forget what he did to me laa. I mean you can't expect me to forget this episod in a few days right. It hurts too much. Gosh. Someone just save me.
Now, im home alone. Nobody's home. Its just me, myself and i. I miss Danial but im refraining myself from calling hym. I dont want hym to label me as clingy or stalker or insecure. Oh wait. He already does. It sucks.
I know this post is like super long. You dont know how much damage i have gone through. Im mending my own heart since there's no one out there to repair it for me. Pathetic much. Yeah, imma pathetic loser.
I think i hear the gate. Yeah! My sister is home :)

Lots of Love
Fafa Ayu Manje ♥

Today was totally suckish. I mean Alhamdulilah I'm still alive. But sch really get on my nerve. ITE shud really pay my lecturer more salary cause she is super desperate and need us to pay her 50cents everytime we speak in our mother tongue language. What's her freaking problem man?! Lecturers nowadays are seriously too much. Anyways, I need to do my art and guess what? I suck in art. My theme is relationships. That's the only thing I can think of other than myself :P
Well, 17 more days and Danial will be going NS :'(
I'm missing hym already eventhough he's still here. Tomorrow he will be fetching me from work.. I want to spend my tym with hym. I miss hym sooooooo much. Does he feel the same way as I do? I hope so.


Lots of Love
Fafa Ayu Manje ♥

Educators nowadays seriously need to go to some attitude test or something. Just now, a new lecturer relief my class. Gosh. She was such a bitch man. She shouted at us. Someone seriously need to teach her some basic manners. I mean I know that you are a new lecturer.. You dont't have to act soo cocky you know. Well, after sch fetched Adam and guess what? We ate Swensens -_-
Banyak laa nk save duit...
I seriously have to remove my nail polish. Had a spot check and my CA told me to remove it by tomorrow but guess what.. I won't be seeing her until Monday. Hehs.
Anyways, maybe on Saturday, Danial will fetch me from work. Yay! I hope he really fetch me.
Well, he still haven't call me until now :(
Oooohhhh yaaaahhhh.. Our class played this angel and mortal game.. And soo... my mortal is..... I cant tell you :P
I'm super lucky I get this person. Phew.. Hehehe.. Wondering what to get for my mortal.. Hmm...


Lots of Love
Fafa Ayu Manje ♥

Labels: Accepting

Hello :) It has been such a long time. Well, i quit my job at the restaurant. Now, im currently umm.. selling jewellery..? It's okay i guess. It's my 2nd year in ITE. My GPA didn't move an inch. Which was not really great. I'll work harder and be more disciplin this year. Umm.. Danial is going NS in May :(
But don't worry my dear, i'll wait for you. Cheyy.. Hehs. This year, im gonna try to save lots of $$$.
Duit kawin. Hehehehe.. I still need to buy a new bag and pay my class fund. Bluehh..
I did my first manicure ever profesionally the other day. $22.


Nice ryte? But I have to remove it soon coz there's gonna be a spotcheck in sch. But heck care, I won't remove it until they force me to. Muahaha.. My mum is getting me a DSLR this year for my birthday! Ahhh!!! Im soo freaking happy :)
Gosh. Im becoming more and more talkative nowadays. Zana birthday just passed. I bought her an earring. It's a frog earring. It suits her personality really well. Hahaha. My timetable this semester rocks man. Tuesday is the only day I start at 8. It's a good thing for me, a habitual latecomer. Thankyou :)
That's all I guess for now. Toodles.


Lots of Love
Fafa Ayu Manje ♥

Hello. Its 2011. Sorry lame saye menyepi. Hehs. Anyways, I know nobody reads my blog except for two people who rarely visits my blog. Yes. Its you :P
So, what happen.. hmm..
Today my hair is very the irrits. I think i should cut it but very the shayannggg :(
I just dont know how to take care of long hair. Btw, just now, I just had my very own KOI. Its a drink. I bought IceCream MilkTea. It taste okay I guess. It's $2.90. I was soo semangat and took some pictures of me and my very first KOI :)
Syima say I lame but I dont care :)
Today, I feel so semangat to do my assignments. I also dont know where I get the motivation o.O
Umm, abt my love lyfe? I broke up wf Danial again but this tym.. We let go in a good way but biase laa.. we still contact each other. He say that he cant even take care of hymself then want to take care of me.. Aww.. So thoughtful.. Well, I told hym if that's the reason.. Im okay wf the breakup.
Oh. Now in fb, he more maju.. So yeah, I dont really lyk that. Now he also lyk nvr lyn me lyk that :(
Da laa.. nk migrate laa gyny :(
 Anyways, this are the pictures of my very first KOI :)






Lots of Love
Fafa Ayu Manje ♥

Labels: Better Future

On 16 December 2010, our 3rd year anniversary.. I patched wf Danial. Ytd, I wrote something on my fb wall and Danial wasnt happy wf it. He asked me to find someone else. Im soo dissapointed. Firstly, I havent meet Danial for more than two weeks. So i only meet hym once or twice evry month. If this continue, a year i'll only meet hym 12-24 tyms. While, evryday.. he go lepak and play soccer wf his frens. EVERYDAY. I really mean  EVERYDAY. And now, he is close to this new fren of his. I also dont know how and zaman bile they cn b so close. Is either that guy go to Danial's house or vice versa. I dont understand y he can make tym for others but not me, his girlfren. This make me think negative stuff. Haish.. And y he can lepak wf his fren's girlfren, but he didnt bring me to lepak wf hym. Am I such a disgrace to hym? He still continues adding random girls in fb. Eventough he said he wont do it again. Ah!! I feel soo.. oh. I dont know. I feel soo abandoned and lonely. He also dont really pick up my calls nowadays. Sometyms it made me think that he was having fun wf someone else or something. I really really really miss hym. The old hym. I want hym back. I want my Danial that was always there for me, sweet sweet manje manje. He seems lyk a changed person now. I feel soo sad. He dont treasure me much nw. Trust me, the person you love most, will hurt you the most.
Lots of Love
Fafa Ayu Manje ♥

Labels: the more you hurt, The more you love