Pieces of My Lyfe

2011-11-23T00:20:00.000-08:00

Hey.. It's been months since i blogged. So yeah.. Alot of stuff happen lately. Well, hmm.. I've enrolled in driving and still in the theory stage. Hahahaha. 22nd December is my Basic Theory Test. Wish me luck :)
Next up, Danial cheated on me with a 15 year old girl -_-
She's my sister's and Danial's sister's age. They met twice and had sex. So yeah.. Kill me. I've been crying every night. Thinking about it hurts like @$%&. I rather he tell me straight in my face that he had another girl than do this to me.I was soo stupid to believed his lies. Guess what? Danial sanggup gy Sengkang where the girl lives there just to meet her when he was still wf me. Bitch. Double bitch. I mean like our distance is just 20mins away and sanggup he waste his time and ezlink on a bitch. You know, i treated both of them so nice. I messaged that girl on FB saying sorry to her on Danial's behalf but he doesn't know this. He said that im very zalim. Well, in my opinion, what he did to me was more zalim-er. To think i said sorry to her on his behalf as if im the one stealing Danial from her. And i think that girl has other guy to but i bet Danial didn't know. I always hope that karma hit him but when karma really hit hym, i feel sad and heartbroken. I dont even know why im feeling this way. Sometimes i just hope that i lost my memory so that i could re-start my life. I love hym too much to hurt hym but he doesn't feel what i feel. Sometimes i pray that ALLAH open his heart and mind. That's all i can do. I mean i waited for hym, tahan wf hym and this is what i get. As much as i love hym, sometimes i need hym to love me back. Ytd, he sort of blame me for his lost of youth/teenage years. Im like.. -_-
I wasted almost four years with you. I tahan your nonsense, temper, lies, betrayal, actions, words and you cheat on me. You break my heart like nobody's business and now, you blame me? I wasted my youth/teenage on you. Haish. If he really loved me, he wouldn't have done this to me. I feel like a pathetic loser :(
Anyways, sad heartbreaking story aside. Now, im like addicted to the song "I love you like a love song" by Selena Gomez. Yes. It's the girl that dates with Justin Bieber. Okayy.. I still can't forget what he did to me laa. I mean you can't expect me to forget this episod in a few days right. It hurts too much. Gosh. Someone just save me.
Now, im home alone. Nobody's home. Its just me, myself and i. I miss Danial but im refraining myself from calling hym. I dont want hym to label me as clingy or stalker or insecure. Oh wait. He already does. It sucks.
I know this post is like super long. You dont know how much damage i have gone through. Im mending my own heart since there's no one out there to repair it for me. Pathetic much. Yeah, imma pathetic loser.
I think i hear the gate. Yeah! My sister is home :)

Lots of Love
Fafa Ayu Manje ♥

2011-04-15T06:56:00.000-07:00

Today was totally suckish. I mean Alhamdulilah I'm still alive. But sch really get on my nerve. ITE shud really pay my lecturer more salary cause she is super desperate and need us to pay her 50cents everytime we speak in our mother tongue language. What's her freaking problem man?! Lecturers nowadays are seriously too much. Anyways, I need to do my art and guess what? I suck in art. My theme is relationships. That's the only thing I can think of other than myself :P
Well, 17 more days and Danial will be going NS :'(
I'm missing hym already eventhough he's still here. Tomorrow he will be fetching me from work.. I want to spend my tym with hym. I miss hym sooooooo much. Does he feel the same way as I do? I hope so.

Lots of Love
Fafa Ayu Manje ♥

2011-04-13T06:51:00.000-07:00

Educators nowadays seriously need to go to some attitude test or something. Just now, a new lecturer relief my class. Gosh. She was such a bitch man. She shouted at us. Someone seriously need to teach her some basic manners. I mean I know that you are a new lecturer.. You dont't have to act soo cocky you know. Well, after sch fetched Adam and guess what? We ate Swensens -_-
Banyak laa nk save duit...
I seriously have to remove my nail polish. Had a spot check and my CA told me to remove it by tomorrow but guess what.. I won't be seeing her until Monday. Hehs.
Anyways, maybe on Saturday, Danial will fetch me from work. Yay! I hope he really fetch me.
Well, he still haven't call me until now :(
Oooohhhh yaaaahhhh.. Our class played this angel and mortal game.. And soo... my mortal is..... I cant tell you :P
I'm super lucky I get this person. Phew.. Hehehe.. Wondering what to get for my mortal.. Hmm...

Lots of Love
Fafa Ayu Manje ♥

2nd year

2011-04-12T09:09:00.000-07:00

Hello :) It has been such a long time. Well, i quit my job at the restaurant. Now, im currently umm.. selling jewellery..? It's okay i guess. It's my 2nd year in ITE. My GPA didn't move an inch. Which was not really great. I'll work harder and be more disciplin this year. Umm.. Danial is going NS in May :(
But don't worry my dear, i'll wait for you. Cheyy.. Hehs. This year, im gonna try to save lots of $$$.
Duit kawin. Hehehehe.. I still need to buy a new bag and pay my class fund. Bluehh..
I did my first manicure ever profesionally the other day. $22.

Nice ryte? But I have to remove it soon coz there's gonna be a spotcheck in sch. But heck care, I won't remove it until they force me to. Muahaha.. My mum is getting me a DSLR this year for my birthday! Ahhh!!! Im soo freaking happy :)
Gosh. Im becoming more and more talkative nowadays. Zana birthday just passed. I bought her an earring. It's a frog earring. It suits her personality really well. Hahaha. My timetable this semester rocks man. Tuesday is the only day I start at 8. It's a good thing for me, a habitual latecomer. Thankyou :)
That's all I guess for now. Toodles.

Lots of Love
Fafa Ayu Manje ♥

2011

2011-01-13T06:18:00.000-08:00

Hello. Its 2011. Sorry lame saye menyepi. Hehs. Anyways, I know nobody reads my blog except for two people who rarely visits my blog. Yes. Its you :P
So, what happen.. hmm..
Today my hair is very the irrits. I think i should cut it but very the shayannggg :(
I just dont know how to take care of long hair. Btw, just now, I just had my very own KOI. Its a drink. I bought IceCream MilkTea. It taste okay I guess. It's $2.90. I was soo semangat and took some pictures of me and my very first KOI :)
Syima say I lame but I dont care :)
Today, I feel so semangat to do my assignments. I also dont know where I get the motivation o.O
Umm, abt my love lyfe? I broke up wf Danial again but this tym.. We let go in a good way but biase laa.. we still contact each other. He say that he cant even take care of hymself then want to take care of me.. Aww.. So thoughtful.. Well, I told hym if that's the reason.. Im okay wf the breakup.
Oh. Now in fb, he more maju.. So yeah, I dont really lyk that. Now he also lyk nvr lyn me lyk that :(
Da laa.. nk migrate laa gyny :(
Anyways, this are the pictures of my very first KOI :)

Lots of Love
Fafa Ayu Manje ♥

Abandoned

2010-12-29T23:06:00.000-08:00

On 16 December 2010, our 3rd year anniversary.. I patched wf Danial. Ytd, I wrote something on my fb wall and Danial wasnt happy wf it. He asked me to find someone else. Im soo dissapointed. Firstly, I havent meet Danial for more than two weeks. So i only meet hym once or twice evry month. If this continue, a year i'll only meet hym 12-24 tyms. While, evryday.. he go lepak and play soccer wf his frens. EVERYDAY. I really mean EVERYDAY. And now, he is close to this new fren of his. I also dont know how and zaman bile they cn b so close. Is either that guy go to Danial's house or vice versa. I dont understand y he can make tym for others but not me, his girlfren. This make me think negative stuff. Haish.. And y he can lepak wf his fren's girlfren, but he didnt bring me to lepak wf hym. Am I such a disgrace to hym? He still continues adding random girls in fb. Eventough he said he wont do it again. Ah!! I feel soo.. oh. I dont know. I feel soo abandoned and lonely. He also dont really pick up my calls nowadays. Sometyms it made me think that he was having fun wf someone else or something. I really really really miss hym. The old hym. I want hym back. I want my Danial that was always there for me, sweet sweet manje manje. He seems lyk a changed person now. I feel soo sad. He dont treasure me much nw. Trust me, the person you love most, will hurt you the most.
Lots of Love
Fafa Ayu Manje ♥

Sakura

2010-12-05T03:55:00.000-08:00

Went to Sakura today for family lunch. Saw Danial's fren working there. Hehs. So paiseyy.. Aniways, my lpd project..about the fleamarket.. It sucks n ruined. Gosh.. Some of my group members also.. Haish.. Mintak kene tampar.. I think Danial is making use of me. I mean lyk seriously. If he got no one, he turn to n lyn me.. If nt, woah.. he is super busy. Nowadays, he also lyk nvr lyn me. I guess he has other chicks to lyn huh? Okay. Ayu get a lyfe.
I sooooo want a DSLR badly.. Can buy for me? Hehs. If 'someone' return all my money at a go *which I dont think* I would buy a DSLR immediately. I feel so sad n jealous when I see other people has it n use it :(
Im quite okay wf my job now. Maybe I'm used to it already.
Im still thinking abt my fleamarket! Gosh.. Can someone just buy the stuff thru online so we wouldnt hav to find a freaking location?! Oh. If you want, go to fb n type ' flea fo fund' n check it out. Please help me okay n i dont gain any profit frm it. We are donating the money to an organization.
Ouhya, now im addicted to 'One in a million' by Ne-yo :)
So I guess I'll stop here for now.
Lots of Love
Fafa Ayu Manje ♥

Bad Week

2010-11-21T06:03:00.000-08:00

It has been a bad week for me. Can someone just kill me and get it over wf. Im soo tired and sick of all this. Danial just called me. He didnt believe what I told hym. Seems that he doesnt trust me anymore but it doesnt matter anymore. Im just soo tired of all this. I just wish that lyfe has a stop and rewind button. Y cant he understand? I love hym wf all my heart and gave hym everything and this is what he return to me. Cant he atleast appreciate what I hav done for hym. Its soo hard. This is the only place I can let everything out coz I knw that he wont read this ever. I thought love was a happy thing but no... its soo hurtful that I hope I wont fall in love ever again. Thanks alot huh.
Lots of Love
Fafa Ayu Manje ♥

FML

2010-11-19T04:52:00.000-08:00

I woke up at 5am just to cook for Danial. 6.45am Danial called and told me he just woke up so I sent it to his house and went to skool together. I was late so I was lectured by Pearl. Aftr skool, went back then went again to Danial's house to pass my shoe to his sis. Then I checked his phone (inbox), there was a few mcgs frm this girl. The mcg was soo mesra.. It shows that Danial misses her and always complain to her and she was always there to cheer hym up. I checked one of the mcg was ytd at 10.48pm and he told me that his pp8 low since that day and told me that he doesnt use his phone anymore. I was sooo stupid to believed all his lies. I gave my all to him and he treat me lyk this. Mayb he thinks that I will nvr find out.. well, he's wrong. I cant forgive hym. Its too much. I forgave hym frm tym to tym but not this tym. I was soo crushed. So my sis was wf me, imagine.. we walked all the way frm his hse to JP and I cried lyk crazy while walking. I felt soo heartbroken. Here I am, ignoring the guys and there he is mcging n complaining to another girl. I am sooo STUPID! I seriously hate myself for believing his lies. The biggest regret I have is to meet hym and second to take ECH. How could I be soo blind and dumb?!
Lots of Love
Fafa Ayu Manje ♥

Unappreciated.

2010-11-18T06:43:00.000-08:00

My lyfe sucks. I just wish that i had an accident and i had a coma for several months and forget the bitter part of my lyfe. Yes. I guess that's my wish for now. I just wish that I can run away from all this nonsense for awhile. Well, Danial ask me to gy mampos earlier. So, yeah...
I had a bad day and there he thinks that he is the only one wf problems and dont care what I am feeling.
School was terrible. I just feel lyk going to the beach n just stroll or sit there, listening to the waves while clearing my mind.
Send someone to really really really love me. Please.
Lots of Love
Fafa Ayu Manje ♥

Stressed?

2010-11-15T06:06:00.000-08:00

Hey! Im soo tired today. Went to skool at 8am till 3.30pm. I was late but who cares.. LPD was abit sucky today. After skool, met Danial. I waited for hym for HALF AN HR at Raffles Place. Then we lepak at Jurong then I picked up Adam. Bought chocolate which cost $7.20. Ugh! Mcm mane nk save money..
Anyways, tmr hav group meeting. Means I hav to bring all my nonsense stuff to skool. I forget to bring my paper bag puppet home and tmr hav to pass up and it will be graded. Sucks man!
Gosh! I thought ITE lyfe would be simple but NO... I think its the course. My course is soo hard and requires alot of money man.. Itu nta bole graduate ke tk.. Bsk pon hav to pass up 2 'journal entry' and we hav to reflect on it. My classmates also some attitude lyke shit. Tmrw is my 2years 11months anniversary wf Danial. Shooo shaadddddedddd. :(
Hope tmr will be a better day for me and for all!
Lots of Love
Fafa Ayu Manje :)

Overwelmed

2010-11-13T19:59:00.000-08:00

Okkaaayyy. After work, i went to Danial's aunt's house. It was super damn big man. Danial and I swimmed. I thought Danial couldn't swim. But I was wrong.. Then we went upstairs and showered ( different room of course)
Every room there has a bathroom and every bathroom has a bathtub. How I wish the room was mine. The room and bathroom was super duper cool as if Im in a hotel or something. So went I reached home, I cleaned the toilet and my room. Hehs. Well, its still abit messy now but its better. Ouhya, while working, I saw this nice bag but the shop sells expensive stuff. So yeah.
Lots of Love
Fafa Ayu Manje :)

New Lyfe

2010-11-12T06:37:00.000-08:00

Hola! Whats up? Soo... I havent been writing since 1993.. hehs.. okay.. since months.. Update of my lyfe.. Danial and I broke up on 6 October 2010 and havent patch up since but.. we are still contacting each other.. hehs.. but for me, its different now.. It just doesnt feel the same anymore. Now his temper lyke become worser and easily irritated. I just dont really feel the same when im wf hym now. Its lyke he is there but he is there not for me anymore. I also dont really feel protected when im wf hym now. Well, as always.. he stood me up again. Stupid me. But love is a hard thing to say.. If only he knew what I am thinking and feeling.. As usual, his frens are more important to him than compare to me.. I may say its okay. but in reality, I feel lyk shouting.. Its Not okay. Im not your toy you know. You use me whenevr you want and i'll b there for you anytym lyke a desperate girl. I just cant resist him. Mayb this is what you call true love but I guess im the only one loving hym.. I feel lyke doing a makeover on myself. Just to make me happy and confident but i dont know how. My skool sucks! So many assignments and make up classes.. Its soo irritating. Some of my classmates is seriously soo irritating. They keep bitching around. While they themselves...well.. arent that perfect either. Ugh..
I also feel lyke quiting my job coz i dont lyke the place and the people. But i need money!!!
So I guess i'll b staying for awhile.
Conclusions.. I still love Danial.. My skool and work sucks! I need money and a make over.
Lots of Love
Fafa Ayu Manje :)

Boredemness

2010-06-27T21:50:00.000-07:00

B0REd b0REd b0REd.. Im supER b0REd!! aLL aL0NE aT h0mE.. sTaRiNg aT ThE scREEN wishiNg daT somEThiNg wiLL happEN s00N.

2010-06-26T05:35:00.000-07:00

Heylo! Ary ny we went to JP den kte gy office mama.
This is mama at work. Heh..

I did some scanning, photocopying and despatch. Heh.. Daa bole keje admin ny.. Hahaha..Anw, 4hrs ltr..We went to Jurong West coz my sis naq beli bra. Oppsss.. Daa smpi umah, Danial called and we quarrelled abt nothing!!

Unplanned

2010-06-24T07:39:00.000-07:00

Ary ny I had an interview at cthall n i got e job :)

I'll b starting in Wed. Lps interview, Zana and I went to Esplanade since kte daa dkt. Actually I was supposed to go to Malay Dance. Ssshhhh...

Kte jln2 and chill pat Coffee Bean. We shared Mudpie and Warm Chocolate Cake. We prefer e Chocolate Cake. Hehs..

Lps daa kenyang, kte walk2 agy den Zana weak.. So kte ddk2, I tucked in my shirt and bought fruit smootie for Zana beh org yg jual tuu ask whether im a Esplanade staff.

Penjual : U Esplanade staff?

Me : No, y? Hav discount uh?

Penjual : *Mumbled something..*

Me : I got interview

Penjual : At Esplanade?

Me : No laa.. At Cthall

Hahaha.. Agknye dhyer boring kot diri pat situ evryday sorang2 tqde tmn or mayb I tucked in my shirt n look lyk org yg keje office.. Heh..

Lps daa relax, kte jln all e way to Marina Bay Sands. It's quite far actually but worth it coz we had fun. We took lots of pics :)

Then we took 106 bus and the last stop is at Bukit Batok Interchange, since we r there..

We shopped a bit but very leceh coz I no cash. So, I owed Zana about $6 I think. Hehs.. Thx Zana.. Tee hee..

Anyways.. tdy my irritating brother throw my psp on the floor lyk 2 or 3 tyms coz he has a BAD TEMPER!!! Den my parents mrh saying that I dont take care of my things but when I took my psp and hide frm hym, he cry den my parents ckp jgn buat Adam ngangis.. Merepek kn??!!!

Wat am I suppose to do then.. Sometimes these people nonsense uh..

Dissapointment

2010-06-23T08:54:00.000-07:00

Hav u evr dressed up for someone special n the person didnt say much. In this case, I was expecting to b treated lyk a princess. Ingtkn ary ny bole sweet2 n manje2.. Haish.. I waited and waited and waited.. Anw, im a bit pissed off too.. I tried very hard to help someone and end up he gave up. I asked ' u taq kesiankn i ke?'
All he said was sorry and he didnt evn look at me.. Ahhh!!!

My day!!

2010-06-22T07:19:00.000-07:00

Today I went to cthall nan Zana utk interview for Watson. Den, we found out that the interviewer is on MC!!! So, on Thursday we hav to go there again. Since we r there, we decided to window shop. While we were window shopping, a china lady talk to me and ask me where im from and she ask me in chinese if i could speak chinese. Hahahaha. Anw, she was selling straightener and curler. She curled some of my my hair n it looked gorgeous :)

Then, we went to Lot 1, we applied for jobs at Guardian and Siam Kitchen. I think most likely Zana get to work at Siam Kitchen. Good Luck Zana :)

I got home. After i shower, mama suro tmn gy Jp naq kluakn $ and shopping pat Ntuc Xtra.

Daa smpi umah, my darling call. Heh.. Ssh seyy naq contact klau tqde hp :(

Anw, today was a very fun day!!! :)

2010-06-15T07:29:00.000-07:00

I miss hym soo much!!!!

Bored!!!

2010-06-14T21:16:00.000-07:00

Okay. Hello. Im super bored. As usual, quarrel wf my guy. But last nyte while talking to my sis n telling her y i got wf hym.. Makes me miss hym soo much.. So, I decided to mcg his sister coz he dont have hp anymore.

Me: Abg ade?
Sis: Dhe kuwa
Me: Kol brape dhe kua?
Sis: 9 lebih
Me: Okay

Ahhh!!! Makes me soo mad.. He didnt evn call to say he has gone out or reached home. Since it's the world cup season. He is always back late. Im soo damn worried if anything happen to him. Haizz. Now, I miss hym lyk crazy.. Call me.. Call me...

Betrayed

2010-04-05T22:56:00.000-07:00

I feel soo betrayed n cheated. I ask my guy if he got chat wf anyone besides me. He said no. I evn ask hym to swear n he said no. I found out he chatted wf a girl. I dont give a damn if she is his fren or nt but he lied to me. Only god knows what he have been lying to me b4 this. Its okay if he say yes dat he chatted wf his fren. But nw, he wont evn admit dat he chat wf anyone. I dont think I can trust hym anymore after this. Up to nw, he still dont admit of hym chatting wf anyone. N today, my grandfather was robbed of his pay. I tk halal kn smpi akhirat! I hope dat robber meet wf a horrible accident n death! How dare he rob frm an old man n he rob all of my grandfather's pay. My grandfather worked soo hard for it. Damn Robbers!

Wassup

2010-03-19T01:26:00.000-07:00

Hello people! Hahaha.. I just wanted to share something. Im starting to regret some stuff in my lyfe.. Im now quite bored actually coz my school will start on 12 April 2010 & in e meantym, I have nothing to do. Can someone bring me out?
Im starting to miss some people frm BLSS :(

Latest Update

2010-01-20T06:04:00.000-08:00

Hey! Its been a long tym huh.. Its lyk centuries i've blogged.. Hahaha.. Well, latest update abt mua..
I've taken mua 'o' lvl results. IT SUCKS!! I was only given 3 courses n its in ITE. Well, I have to accept mua fate. This is what u get when u dont study hard enuf. My first choice is Early Childhood at Bishan.. Well at least I can be a childcare teacher or kindergarden teacher. Hahaha.. My second choice is Beauty & Spa which is at Simei. I wanted to take Beauty & Spa as mua first choice but mua mom say dat its hard to find a job in future if I took that course. Lastly, mua third choice is Visual Merchandising which is at Bishan again. I wanted to take a course at Clementi as its nearer to mua place but.. Haiz.. I had to accept e reality. I was fired on 3rd January 2010.. Hahaha.. Cool ryte.. I was fired because I was reading a newspaper. No warning, nothing.. The nex thing I knew, I was in e MRT staring at e view.. Hahaha.. Well, its okay.. I wanted to quit anw. Atleast I dont hav to type mua resignation letter. Hahahaha.. Well, to mua frens out there. Gd Luck in Lyfe! :)

2009-10-16T04:34:00.000-07:00

Hey! It's been 1 mth I update mua blog. Hahaha.. Well, I juz wanna wish " HaPpY 1yR 10mThS aNnIvErsARy! " . Hehehe.. Thx Shazana for wishing tdi pagy.. Hehe.. Juz nw, I had SS, Geo & Hist MOK exam.. It was okay I guess.. 'O' is coming super fast.. Next Thursday is Sci practical.. Wish me luck okie.. Anw, I juz had a little tiff :(
I wish we will b okay soon. Bye!

HaPpY 1yR 9MtHs AnNiVeRsArY :)

2009-09-16T02:05:00.000-07:00

Hey! I'm quite happy today :)
Coz it's mua 1yr 9mths anniversary today. Hehehe.. I thought he had forgotten abt it but.. he didnt :)
At 12.26pm, he sent me a mcg using his fren hp coz his pp8 low. Well, I was hoping dat he wud mcg me at midnight but still okay laa. Atleast he remembered. Hahaha..
Juz nw, we had Chem & Eng prelim. The paper was hard. I mean for me. I'm juz nt smart enuf. Comfirm F9 :'(
I wanna go poly u knw.. Tmrw Bio & Hist. Since mua Chem paper no hope.. I have to work harder for Bio. Anw, I still haven finish up mua prep work. Mr Rahim is gonna kill me. Hahahaha.
4 more days! Mua kuih at home almost finish already. Hahahahaha. Thx to me, mua sis, mua brother & mua dearest mother.
Before I go..

HaPpY 1yR 9mThS aNnIvErSaRy!
Love u so much. I wish our relationship will berkekalan forevr.
Im sorry if I changed. I 'll change myself to be the old Ayu but u have to help & support me okie. Thx for thn wf mua attitude.
Heh.. Muackz! I want to celebrate dis Raya & the yr aftr dat & so on wf u tau. Hahahaha.

He doesnt evn knw mua blog link. Hahahaha :D

Gtg.. Bubbye!
:)

Emptyness

2009-09-15T06:43:00.000-07:00

Hello! Its been a long tym huh. Well, let's c.. Umm.. Juz now, I had geo elective prelim. It was.. hard. Hahahaha. Tmrw, I'm having chem & eng. Wish me luck okie.
Hari Raya is coming soon. 5 more days!
Anw, I patch back on 29 August 2009. I felt happy a bit but there is this emptyness inside of me. Haiz.. I dont knw what's wrong. I feel lyk he doesn't love me lyk he used to. Im sooo sad :(
He doesnt seem to treat me lyk how he used to. Ahh!
I wish this Raya will be a meaningful one for us & help to strengthen our relationship :)

The Cracking Of E Egg

2009-08-18T01:19:00.000-07:00

Hey! Welcome to Ayu's blog!
This is weird.
Haha. Im new in this, so im like blurr.. hehe
Today I had my English 'O' level oral. It's okay I guess. One of the qns is really damn hard.
Its abt feeling guilty. How shud I knw for goodness sake. Haha.
Tomorrow is mua Malay 'O' level result. If I get B, I would retake my Malay again. Haha
K la. I've got nothing else to type. Bubbye!